Figuring things out
WHY I AM SO CONFUSED? Am I portraying something? Am I portraying my feelings? Or am I portraying myself in front of my friends? I don’t know what’s happening, but there’s something that doesn’t feel right. This feeling of confusion—it’s unsettling. I’ve never liked being confused. I’m the kind of person who sits with herself, reflects, and figures things out every single time I face uncertainty. I take my time, analyze my thoughts, and always find answers. But this time, it feels different. Is this not me? Or is it a part of me I’ve never explored before? In my 20 years of life, I’ve never left anything unanswered about myself. I don’t share my feelings easily with others because I’ve always believed that what I feel doesn’t matter much to anyone else. This habit of keeping my thoughts to myself taught me the art of being alone, of processing my emotions independently. I’ve grown used to fighting my battles within, without needing external validation or support....